After some time I finally figureed out what it is. And sadly it isn’t the weather.

I’ve got a throat infection.

Now, what does this mean?

It means I have trouble working on any labuor. Be it the labour I have the do or the labour I want to do. Sadly, all the labor I want to do is very focus intensive. (With the possible exception of storyboarding?)

I hate it.

I hate not doing anything.

I hate not working on anything.

I hate not working towards anything.

I hate being idle.

Reading books and watching Youtube could never replace the time I’m loosing day by day.

If I force myself to work on my things now it won’t look good.

When I’m heatly and “in the game” I simply forget how painful It’s is to be “out of the game”.

It is a painful feeling and I hate it with every fiber of my body.

I yearn for my work and I mourn the loss in days like these.